I wasn’t planning on writing this post so soon, but this topic has weighed so heavily on my heart that I just couldn’t put it off any longer. I’m sure that many of us can relate, as this is something that so many of us women struggle with, but never feeling fully open to talking about.
It wasn’t until last night that I decide to go to the gym to walk on the treadmill. I have been sick for the past few days, and literally could not breathe out of my nose. For some reason, my mind was set on this false statement that if I miss two workouts this week, I would be a failure. I decide to brave walking on the treadmill, since it would be too hard to breathe doing anything else. It wasn’t until the end of my workout that a woman about my age (tall, pretty, thin) hopped on the treadmill next to me and started her run at full speed. This may not seem like a huge deal to some, but this has been something that has been on my heart for quite some time, and something in me broke.
That’s when it set in.
The feeling of insecurity. The lies that told me I would be good enough only if I lost more weight, and worked out more often. The lie that I was weak for walking, and needed to continue my fitness journey at full speed, whether I’m sick or not.
As soon as those thoughts entered my mind, a small, still voice told me
” you are fearfully and wonderfully made”
How many times do we judge others because we have convinced ourselves that they have something that we don’t? If we honestly believed the biblical truth that we are made in God’s image, would we treat our bodies the way we do? Would we be constantly pushing ourselves to do more, and eat less despite the fact that our souls are running on empty?
I once heard that comparison is the thief of joy, and honestly I couldn’t agree more. If we took all the energy that we put into comparing ourselves to others around us, and used to to be healthy (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually) the way God intends, imagine the wonderful quality of life we would be living.
If we took our jealousy, and turned it into acceptance of others, imagine how uplifted all of us women would feel on a regular basis.
Do you want to do this challenge with me? Spend one week focusing on what you like about yourself. This may seem strange, but spend time thanking God for what he has blessed you with. We are all made unique in His image, and we are all so deeply loved by Him. This week, spend time working towards living a healthy lifestyle that is honoring to God and full of compassion, not chained by restrictions and fear of “failure”. Let’s show love and compassion to ourselves, and our sisters in Christ instead of judgement.
You are so loved!